To restart my life and carry out my moms last wishes

Rest in p, Queens, N

I need help restarting my life, after the death of my mom and not to long after the suicide of my little brother it just seems my life is filled with horrible luck. I work a dead end job and willing to sell all my belongings to get out this bind. I really need help to relocate and spread their ashes as a wish of my mother. I want to relocate in Hawaii my moms dream vacation and spread her and my brother ashes in the water and also relocate to Hawaii and start over new and still be close to them. I really need help and would appreciate any help you can provide.I feel drained, worn out and tired do not know what else to do.