Severely in Need of Financial Assistance at Rock Bottom

Yourztrul, USA

This is a very difficult for me to write but many avenues seem to have been closed to me and I don't know where else to turn. I hope you all can take the time to read my story. I am a woman living in straitened circumstances and in dire need of financial support . I'm not requesting a certain amount. Any amount I receive is highly appreciated. I am unemployed and currently have no source of income. I get $50 babysitting occasionally but that's only once every couple of months. I'm searching for employment but its difficult due to transportation issues, therefore I'm limited in the places that I can seek employment from. I live in a small town, so there is no public transportation here and even if there were I would not have the money to pay for the services. Whenever it seems I get close to employment it never works out. People will promise me a job but don't do what they say. I tried earning money online and entering sweepstakes to win money but its not working. I also tried praying and even having others online to pray for me but its not working either. Nothing I try seems to work, I'm at wits end. I'm currently living with a relative, who often makes it known that he doesn't want me here. It makes me feel very awkward and that's not a good position to be in at all. I know I'm a burden on him but why kick a person when they are already down? He makes me feel hopeless, useless, and worthless. Things are so bad for me that many times I don't even have food to eat. I'm unable to apply for food stamps because he receives them already and he has my name on his case. The stamps he gets, he gets because of me but does not share them or even buy me food . I guess he has to get pay from me some kind of way. I'm only allowed to eat if he decides he wants to cook which is very rare. Most of the times his girlfriend cooks for him. I normally have to sneak food but if he notices it missing, all hell break loose. I need money for toiletries as well. Things are so bad that many times I don't even have money to buy pads or tampons for that time of month, I have to use face towels. Sorry, I don't mean to sound disgusting but its the honest to God truth. Can you imagine that? I don't like using his items like soap, toilet paper, washing powder, etc because he makes a big fuss over it. Also, I don't even have a decent pair of shoes to put on my feet, decent clothes to put on my back, or decent underwear . He warned me, If I don't have money to give him on utilities this month, I have to leave his house. I have nowhere else to go. I'm on the verge of being homeless. I'm so embarrassed about the situation I'm in and hope and pray to get out of it one day. I'm scared and worried about my future. I don't have health insurance, life insurance, etc. It's not a good feeling at all and I would not wish my life on anyone. I really hope I can get some assistance. I can't get help from my church because I don't have the money to pay my tithes. The pastor and other church official mention many times that they will not help anyone who doesn't pay tithes. I don't really have any friends and my siblings are experiencing hardships of their own. They are single mothers (the fathers don't help financially at all) so I know they can't help me. I'm not that close to other family but I doubt they would help me anyway. I have a boyfriend but he can't help me either. He's struggling himself. He has a job but it only pays minimum wage and he has 5 kids to pay child support for (that's where most of his money goes) and lives at home with his mother. I'm down on my knees begging and pleading for your help. I truly would appreciate any amount given from the bottom of my heart. I appeal for your assistance to extend your generosity to me and hope for the best to obtain your approval. Thank you all for taking the time to read my story.