My computer is too old and slow

Schizophr, Romania

I want to make a strategy game for PC. Unfortunately being schizophrenic means that I hear voices and I have odd behavior which makes me unemployable. I beg because I cannot seem to find a way to make money online. I have tried freelancer.com and upwork.com but I'm consistently under-priced there. Also I have considered a Kickstarter or Indiegogo campagin but unfortunately they require you to show something substantial in the way of project progress and I'm just starting.