looking for hope.

I'm 25 years old I found out nov 2013 I had cushing syndrome. I have been suffering from it a long time it causes me not to work. I have been trying to get my ssi started. but the system keeps turning me down. I was living with my grandfather till he passed away. I lost everything I had. I have been in and out living with family. its hard. some days I don't have anything to eat. im a big girl its hard to find clothes at the free church ministries. I just feel so lost. no one to help me. I sometimes wish I could get a prayer to make life a little better. please help me.