Life after abuse. I want my life to finally be normal

I am looking to open a business to provide money for myself and my family and get my life back on track. From the age of 10-14 years old I was abused by my father. When I say abused I mean he used to touch me. He made me believe that no one would believe me. Then at age 14 he tried to rape me. Then in 2010 when I was 35 years old I got a phone call from the police to say that he had touched some kids and did he ever do that to me when I was a child. I told them what he did and had to give my evidence on video. This brought back every memory that I had managed to push to the back of my mind. This started my depression and caused me many problems. This was made worse in 2012 when I had to sit in court while my video evidence was played so that I could help put him in prison. I have now married a wonderful man who is slowly helping me out of my depression and helping me put this in my past. I don't want my life to be like this anymore. I don't want to be afraid to be around many people anymore. My father has ruined enough of my life and I want it to stop. So I want to open my own business and get my life back, but I need help to get the money to open it.