FOR MY KIDS

MY STORY, LAFAYETTE

I USUALLY DONT GET ONLINE AND BEG FOR MONEY, BUT SINCE THIS INVOLVES MY KIDS AND THEIR WELL BEING. THEN I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD LET MY GUARD DOWN FOR THEM. I AM A 23 YEAR OLD WOMAN. I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING DAY TO DAY WITH TAKING CARE OF MY TWO KIDS. WHICH I TELL YOU IS NOT EASY. ESPECIALLY WHEN I JUST HAD ONE FEB 28 2013. SHE WAS 5 POUNDS AND 9OUNCES. EVEN THEN I WAS STILL STRUGGLING JUMPING FROM HOUSE TO HOUSE WITH MY TWO KIDS. IT SEEMS FAMILY DIDN'T EVEN CARE, BECAUSE EVENTUALLY THEY TOLD ME AND MY TWO BABY GIRLS THAT WE COULDN'T LIVE WITH THEM ANYMORE. SO WITH THE LITTLE BIT OF MONEY I HAD SAVED WE HAD NO THERE CHOICE. SO I BEGAN LIVING OUT OF A HOTEL THAT WAS COSTING $50 A DAY. CPS STARTED TO INVESTIGATE ME BECAUSE MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER WAS GAINING HER PROPER WEIGHT. I KEPT LETTING THEM KNOW THAT SHE WAS BORN WITH A MILD HOLE IN HER HEART CALL VERTRICULAR SEPTAL DEFECT. THEY DIDN'T CARE, BECAUSE THE WOMAN AT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE WAS HARRASSING ME SAYING I'M NOT FEEDING MY BABY. WHEN CPS FOUND OUT THAT ME AND MY TWO GIRLS HAD BEEN LIVING AT A HOTEL AND THAT I WAS ABOUT TO RUN OUT OF MONEY. THEY TRIED TO STEP IN AND HELP A LITTLE, BUT THREATENED ME THAT IF I DIDN'T FIND A PLACE QUICK MY GIRLS WOULD BE TAKEN. WITH THE GRACE OF GOD THEY GOD ME INTO A NASTY DRUG REHABILITATION HOUSE. ITS GROSS BUT ITS BETTER THAN ANYTHING. MEANWHILE WHILE WE BEEN HERE CPS HAS OPENED A CASE. ALSO TOLD ME IF I DON'T FIND BETTER HOUSING IT COULD GET UGLY. I ONLY GET $229 A MONTH AND I HAVE TO USE THAT ON THE ELECTRICTY BILL, BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH THIS PLACE IS GROSS. THEY STILL WANT ANY MONEY I HAVE IN MY POCKET. ITS TO THE POINT THAT I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TO WASH MY CLOTHES, BUY HYGENE PRODUCTS, PURCHASE MY MEDICINE OR WIPES AND DIAPERS FOR MY BABY. ALL I WANT IS TO HAVE MY OWN PLACE AGAIN. ITS HARD WHEN YOU MAKE A MISTAKE AS A TEENAGER AND THEY WAVE IT TO AN ADULT CHARGE AND ITS ON YOUR RECORD FOR LIFE. MAKING IT HARDER FOR YOU TO GET A GOOD PAYING JOB, OR LIVE IN A NICE COMMUNITY. SOMETIMES I BREAK DOWN AND CRY AND WONDER WHY HAVE I BEEN SERVED THIS MESSED UP CARD IN LIFE. WHEN ALL I WANT TO DO IS BE THE BEST MOMMY I CAN BE AND GET OUT OF THIS GROSS BUGGED INFESTED HOPE HOUSE. I JUST WISH YOU COULD PUT ON MY SHOES FOR A DAY AND SEE THAT IT IS NOT A EASY BEING A SINGLE MOM WITH NO HELP. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THE GIVING PERSON WHEN I HAD IT. NOW IM AT ROCK BOTTOM WITH MY TWO KIDS CPS IS TRYING TO TAKE THEM AND I HAVE FAMILY AND FRIENDS WHO DON'T CARE. THANK YOU FOR EADING MY POST , GOD BLESS