I'm finding this difficult to write because I have to admit that I have failed as a mother and swallow my pride and admit I need help. I have recently left an abusive relationship which has resulted in me losing my job because I didn't have the childcare with being on my own. The only money I have left is for my bills and rent and I can't afford a single Christmas present for my children or a proper meal on Christmas Day. I'm desperate for annoying so my children can have a lovely day after an awful year they have had. Thankyou for reading x