depression with not being able to give son things he would like

Strugglin, Chester

hi i have never done this b4 but if some of you nice people are able to help i would really appreciate the help, i thankyou all in advance, am a shy single dad has brought up my boy for 7 years on my own as mother gave him up, i have no child care to find suitable job to provide better for him, i have lost confidence in my self to be able to talk to people, i am bored everyday my son is my life, he tells me to get out more, he is lovely boy so good to me i would just love to give him everything he wants or at least 1 good christmas, sorry to even ask