Hello and thank you to whoever takes a moment of their precious time to read this message.. I have never done anything like this before and I’m a little apprehensive.. but I was taught to be honest and humble enough to ask for help if I really needed it, by an amazing mother who I miss dearly. I am going through some really rough times at the moment.. Suffering from anxiety and depression, Getting in debt with rent and council tax because I am too messed up to answer the door and sort things out.. I am now £2500 in rent arrears because the council stopped paying housing benefit as I failed to reply to the letters sent to me. I have had five years out of work due to a nervous/mental breakdown where I was put on antidepressants due to stress.. however, on 26/09/2013 I was given the opportunity to partake in voluntary work for a local artist .. and I have always found art and creativity an escape from my problems.. so I decided to try and get myself back on track.. He taught me how to sculpt with foam, creating dinosaurs, and I was part of helping to build an animatronic dinosaur attraction. Unfortunately, where the attraction was built, the land owner prevented us from making any money by abusing our trust and withholding all of our ticket sales, and by falsifying invoices and neglecting to supply us with electricity. I am now lucky enough to be included in a new venture that will become an indoor attraction and without the risk of a third party putting a spanner in the works (to put it mildly) and if all goes well, I shall become employed and also have a percentage of the annual profit as a good will gesture for loyalty and sticking with the project for so long.. although secretly, I think the guy who I volunteer for has helped me far more than I could ever help him. However, at the moment, I am struggling with the pressure of having to live on £25.00 per week left over from the ESA I claim, for gas, electricity and food while volunteering every day to help get this place up and running. (volunteering for this project is the only thing that has kept me going through my depression and if it wasn’t for this opportunity and prospects, I’m not sure I would have kept my sanity. I live alone and have to pay extra on rent for the arrears caused by my illness.. and because I live alone in the flat that I have lived in for over 10 years that just happens to have a very small room that is classed as a bedroom, regardless of the fact that there isn’t a bed. Also just recently one of my two 18 year old cats (Jack) that I have looked after and cared for since I adopted them from a rescue center aged 2, well, he didn’t come home for the first time in 16 years.. and it’s been over two months now :'(.. and (Thomas) his brother hasn’t been the same since.. he keeps biting his fur out if I’m away for more than a few hours :( But I have to be away throughout the day the benefit of both of us.. I just think he misses me.. and his bro.. Maybe he could dine on fresh fish every day instead of tinned food once this project is up and running.. But I do the best I can and try to get him to eat all the best food I can afford even though I am struggling myself. If there is anyone out there who would be kind enough to help someone who is trying hard to finally get their life sorted out and to a stage where financial problems are no longer a worry.. someone who has sacrificed a lot so that he can be a part of making people smile. every kid loves dinosaurs right? :) If you would be awesome enough to make it easier for me and my cat to carry surviving while I try to work to wards some kind of future, and maybe even become in a position to invest more than just my time and hope.. then You know yourself that you are an amazing person, and will have all the good karma coming to you that a truly caring and genuine individual deserves. Thank you for considering us, Paul, Thomas and Jack (rip)